MEN - so many times I've said he's out of my life then he comes crawling back, not any more. It has taken me sooooooo long to accept he doesn't want me. WHY? I'll never know........

My sisters wedding just over a week ago went really well and I thought that it would be a bad day fro me but it really wasn't. Think the thing that helped me through was the fact that I helped mum to look after my nephews so I really had no time at all to dwell on my own miseries!

Watched 'THIS MORNING' the other week and they were discussing abortion. Someone rang in and said they'd had one and had not had any counselling either before or after and they described how they felt about themselves and it sounded just like me so I've arranged to go and see someone next week to talk about the fact that I had one over 10 years ago to see if it's going to help me feel better about myself.

I've stopped taking my anti-depressants, Dr wanted to take me off them anyway as she thought I was better! Not sure how taking a few pills is going to make you feel better if nothing else changes as you'd still feel the same way! Stopping was not the right thing to do but I'm doing ok so far, get a bit teary at times but I think I'm doing ok.

Having major problems at work, I'm just not coping. Feel like my manager 'has it in for me'!! It feels at the moment like I'm back in my previous place of work and I ended up walking out of there without another job to go to...

Everything goes ok for a while and then things start going wrong, too much going on in my head and need to start sorting it out!

On a more positive note, seeing as I've had so many problems with my landlord since I moved here I've an appointment to go see a couple of flats in a few minutes.