It's not something I find easy to do, I never have and probably never will.

I'm still pining over Simon, I know I shouldn't but I can't help it.

My confidence was knocked, as it would be when the relationship broke down and tied in with the work problems I did hit an all time low but that was 12 months ago. I did find something to focus on though and that was finding a job. After that though there was nothing. I've been doing more craft stuff lately, but there's more making than selling occuring!!!

I just feel so crappy. I wake up crying, every moment I'm alone I cry, I spend all my time at home in my room, I go to sleep crying, I'm crying now and I just can't stop it.

I don't know what to do with myself anymore, I'm so lonely - no friends and no one to talk to. It all should have got better by now but it's getting worse with every day that passes.

I can't carry on like this for much longer.