I really can not describe it but I get a certain thought in my head when I do a certain action and it's freaking me out somewhat!!!

You see, this only happens when I'm at work - the thing is when I've got a sharp knife in my hand, more specificaly when I'm drying it and going to the draw to put it away, no matter whatever else is going on around me or what I was thinknig about before I do this, I always end up thinking I'm going to fall and end up stabbing myself quite badly!!

Reminds me of the weeks I spent thinking (everytime I passed a tree and I lived in the country) I was going to crash into said tree!!!

Just what is going on inside my head!

I will admit, I'm finding life a little tough at the moment, crying more than I have been but I have this feeling that I just can't cope. I spend all my time in my room if I'm not at work and I don't seem to be a ble to function properly to do anything else....... I wonder if these 'knife' thoughts are just because I'm a little wired up wrong at the moment!