Do you know that since I wrote that letter I've not cried once or thought about him much at all!!
If I'd have know things would change so quckly I'd have written sooner. I did initially write the letter to send to him. I did want to be really horrible and tell him exactly what I think about him and his mother but I decided it was not worth it being full of hatred as I don't hate him, just what has happened. I'm still undecided as to whether to just print it off and send it to him anyway as he'll not get back to me, but do I really want him to receive it??? Decisions, decisions!!
I've been thinking about the things I have to look forward to aswell so as to try and pull me out of feeling sorry for myself.
1) I go to the gym 3 times a week and fingers crossed it's doing me some good (I could do with losing a few stone!).
2) I go to Calderdale College next Wednesday lunch time to register for my jewellery course. I know very little about it but it'll be something to do one evening a week for a few weeks.
3) I'm going to my cousins on thursday evening as she's having a Virgin Vie and Jewellery party (my sister who's a Body Shop rep has told me I'm not to buy anything and I shan't be buying jewellery. I'm going for ideas so I can start doing my own home jewellery parties).
4) I am actively (or at least was yesterday and today) seeking out a new career, even looked into going back to study but there's so much out there and I stiull have no clue as to what to do.
5) Have looked at some free online courses and have so far done some book keeping and touch typing!! Like I say, I have no idea what I want to do.
6) I must look for some sort of online test with hundreds of questions which will tell me at the end of it which jobs may suit my personality/interests best.
7) Absolutely petrified about about my little weekend away in September. I must have been feeling so brave when I booked that as I never go anywhere by myself!
I think I've enough stuff to look forward to, I even have enough stuff to do at home what with me only having three and a half weeks to complete my LDQ and the 2 books I submitted so far had some 'corrections' to be made! Still two books to complete and send in yet, sort of running out of time me thinks!
On a more somber note, the lady I support who was in hospital recently came home on thursday evening last week. She was very poorly and she basically came home to die. She passed away yesterday evening. RIP AB xx
