My life just seems so boring at the moment, there's not an ounce of interesting anywhere!

Every week is not the same with me working shifts but I do get 2 whole days off every week which seem to be spent looking at the screen on my laptop and playing mindless games to take my mind off other things.

A quick 30min trip to the gym happens every monday wednesday and friday and the only plans I have are a trip to the hairdressers next thursday (soooooo exciting!!!) and my little weekend away in September (soooooo shitting myself!!!).

I spent a few hours online yesterday evening trawling through some websites looking for ideas for a change of career but I drew a complete blank. I'm thinking that perhaps I'll have to do some sort of 'training' for a complete change and I'm not against doing this, I'm just so stuck as to what I want to do as I've never done anything else. I'm thinking that maybe just a temporary change of place of work at the moment might be a good idea to a place with a larger staff team where it might be somewhat easier to make some new friends. I've been at my current place for only 4 months but I don't see much potential. The people there that are near my age are either married with kids and never go out or they've known each other for over 20 years and are not looknig for someone new to enter their 'circle'.

I'm optomistic about a college course I've expressed interest in and I'm awaiting details of enrolment. I'm optomistic about the fact I'll enrol and meeting new people, but I'm not optomistic about making new friends.

Seeing as I find it so hard to make friends in the first place there should be somewhere that people like me can go to make friends without too much pressure being put on as it'll definately help to boost confidence and once I have the confidence I'll not need the group to help!

Maybe I'm looking at all the wrong things, maybe it's my confidence I need to be looking into. Maybe I need to be looking at boosting my self confidence as I can hardly expect to make new friends and expect these people to like me when I don't even like myself.

(Had a moment of madness last night and rang SD, only his phone was switched off, which I was glad about so I didn't have to talk to him. I just have one question for him though...... Why are you such an ignorant bastard???)