i think the monday blues have come back!!!!!

i was feeling so positive about the contact that i recently made with SD but the positivity was slowly creeping away yesterday and has now gone completely out of the window. for the last couple of days i initiated contact but as i have not done so today, i've heard nothing yet and i'm actually doubting i will. things were going so well (as well as can be expected in a week), i actually thought he'd changed his outlook slightly, especially since the conversations we've had he certainly seemed as though he was looking at things differently. i feel so negative about the whole thing, maybe arranging to meet him is not such a good idea as i can't bear not speaking to him on a daily basis, can't bear the fact that he's not texting me in a morning....... i know i'm being impatient, i always am, i'm trying not to be but it's not working.

well i decided today to not text him, and so far i haven't. i've not attempted to ring him either (unlike last night when he would have had a missed call which he has not yet returned) and i am adamant that i will not do so later either. he has made no attempt to contact me so far today so i need to put all thoughts of him out of my head and concentrate my energy elsewhere.

does telepathy really work? maybe i could will him to ring me! lol

i think i'm too needy and dependant........