i was asked this question by crazyrainbowblondie in relation to my post about my first day. i did start to write a response to your comment but it was so long i decided it was probably worth a post all in itself!!

the answer is both yes and no!

yes because my self confidence is very low. it was getting knocked with every interview i attended, i was knocking myself with every application form i filled in and i needed at that time to stop the process. i accepted the first full time job offered to me and just forgot about the rest. do you know what its like to completely start your life all over in a different part of the country? the only people i see on a regular basis were my parents. the only place i ever went was the job center once a fortnight to sign on. it petrifies me to walk out of the door just to go to the shops sometimes and the less i go out, the more reclusive i become. i had to take action, had to start to get out and i saw accepting the job as the easy way out. i don't make friends very easily and have never been able to just 'pop' round to a mates without being invited but i don't have anyone in the area who would invite me, as i've said, only know my parents and they live under the same roof.

no on so many levels..... i am capable of doing more than what this job will allow me to do, but i need to build my confidence to be able to sell myself to enable me to get the right job. i would love to move out of my parents and the wage i will be paid will no where near enable me to stand on my own two feet. i saw a new job as a way of meeting new people, preferably near my own age but it looks like this is not going to happen. the student giving me my induction was 'managerial' experience for her and good luck to her for the future, but my induction is not an experiment and quite frankly it would have been better if she had not told me she had only been there 3 weeks.

if anyone knows of somewhere i can go to instantly build my self confidence and make new friends at the same time then i'd happily jack in my new found job and look for something more suitable, but as i know this sort of place does not exist in reality then i'm having to do it this way. i'm under no illusion that this is going to be the perfect job, it is not going to make me happy and it's certainly not going to challenge me enough to keep me interested, but it's a start. it gets me out of the house 5 days a week and i'm bringing home triple the amount of money i was getting signing on so i'll be able to make a start on paying off some debts. i'm trying to keep perspective and it's one thing at a time and my current goal is to bring in a wage, which i am now achieving, my next goal, is going to be somewhat harder for me to achieve, but i'm going to look into it and will keep you posted.