do you ever find that sometimes you feel like there is absolutely nothing going on in your life worth writing about? sometimes i feel i say too much, other times i feel i should be saying things when i can't actually think of something to say!

sometimes i feel my life is pointless (like right now)...... i'm existing instead of living! i know it's upto me to go out there and live but i'm extremely introverted and could never go anywhere without someone beside me for morale support. i'm not having a bad day today, i'm just bored! too much time on my hands with not much to do (infact very little to do). it's times like now i wish i hadn't moved away from my friends, but then again, those i thought were friends haven't stuck by me since i moved so maybe its for the best.

on a brighter note, got a letter this morning offering me one of the jobs i went for last week, it's not quite what i wanted as it's working ad hoc for an agency but it will do until i find something better. no idea when i'd be due to start as they need to collect references first and probably as CRB so could be another month yet! i also had a phone call about another job interview so i now have 3 next week and i hate them!!!

as for my sister and her wedding........ she's set the date, got the church sorted and the venue, bridesmaids and best man picked etc and there are a few of us, just close family, going out on the 2nd february for a meal to celebrate. not looking forward to that at all. i'm really happy for her, it just reminds me how everything went wrong for me. i know come the wedding next year i'll not be thinking like this so i just have to fight my way through this right now.